From a crazy board log
Never! The cost is not too great when you really want to do something in life.
But often you ask yourself rightly, do you have time or do you need more lives to accomplish what you have proposed?
Well, this is really a question you need to think deeply about.
And yet the autumn came, which will soon be completed. Great feeling to feel, see the yellow-rusty shades of the leaves, feel the wind that pleasantly caresses the face, and grazes the hair, feels the fine drops of rain when outside is ugly and it rains, you can dream about everything that is more beautiful, and why not feel the romantic smell of the gentle wind.
Autumn with its warm curtain slides slowly but surely over everything you like, creating palette colors that most often bring to mind scripts and film kings, having the power to get you out of a state of joy in a state of pleasant melancholy, giving you the possibility, in one form or another, in your own imagination, of creating virtual heroes or of replacing a character from a novel or film, and if you succeed, it means you have overcome the spatial dimension you are in.
I wonder if this is still possible? But are not we the slaves of our own destiny?
Why did I need a wretch to open Pandora’s Box at my birth? Did he do it out of foolishness or curiosity?
It’s a natural question that has been killing me for so many years, and I do not think I can ever find the answer in this life, maybe in another life, yes, if I can give back time, but now, certainly not.
Many enjoy the clemency of life, being modeling, coordinating, watching, and even supervised by people with a particular status in social positions that will be envied by most of you, being a character who learns many by that “guru” of yours.
It is obvious that you liked and it helped you through with helpful tips on how to succeed in life, what is the meaning of life, the way you must follow to avoid falling away, and the means to use to always succeed in what you do even with the risk of scraping corpses or making you “brother with the luck to get what you want”.
This gives an opportunity, or could I say a lot of luck, how can I benefit from it? And then in discussions with friends or other people to propose them in an informal way how to make the first million of Euro in a year, when they are practically not, or even they do not have this possibility, when in fact in other words “do not drink after drinking water”.
But I have learned myself, perhaps copying others, but who have not been, let’s really say an ideal model for me, I do not want to victimize or crawl myself, but the environment I lived in, good or hostile to me, formed me and gave me some landmarks for the future, that in response to the reproaches I receive from some about behavior and which I really do not want to make their names public, though it would be very easy, so that I carry my cross that was destined for me.
But I always believed in my charm, in my charisma and perhaps the fact that I read a lot helped me be alive. I never succeed in the first attempt, but it’s like Lotto, I’m still am trying again, maybe my chance is in my second or third attempt. Sometimes I succeed, but most of the times I’m wrong, and so I try, I try maybe it will be good for me too.
So far we have discovered the two essential stages of life, namely the first part lived before 1989, when you had something, if you were lucky enough to have it, and you could choose what it was, although you often did not have much to choose from, which is why I am as they are.
Others, however, who were able to make various selections because of the social position of their parents, relatives, friends, and the limited social space in which they lived benefited from the best.
As far as this stage is concerned, I wrote somewhere, somewhere, something, in order not to scare the reader too much, nor to be horrified by what happens, plus the fact that it would loosely cling to the darkness of those ugly times lived by me and others like me.
Reminders that remain.
And the second part of life, after 1989, when you had the choice of the many things, facts, time-specific ideas, there were problems, because you did not always have what, with the more advanced the age, the way of thinking trying to adapt to the new conditions and situations, often extreme, plus the fact that you have to find the appropriate character to follow in the conditions in which it conforms to the patterns you have.
Inappropriately told to copy it, maybe to follow it, possibly to teach you a new type of way to live in a lifetime adapted to the new conditions imposed by society, in other words, to change yourself, and to use new patterns that you would create greater comfort in life, which is harder but not impossible.
After me sincerely the two periods are similar but diametrically opposed. I’m not into politics but just trying to convince myself that the way I chose from the period after 1989 is the right one.
But now I’m not sure she’s really the best or the happiest.
Looking at me around, I now ask for a question, why some have really done, and I have come to say according to an ancient Romanian word “a licking lick and empty elbows, roasted mate”, difficult to interpret I did not come back in time to what I once was?
Do I still have time to do what I wanted to do and what I really wanted?
But I hope and wish from my whole heart to realize what I have proposed but not here, perhaps elsewhere, if God through his mercy will take me under his guardian wing, giving me a chance, or better said a second chance in life, as it did too many.
But I’m afraid to become a pessimist and not to believe in the second chance. Why do some people do not?
A hard question, you will say that time will solve all of it, but is it true that I have to wait for the mark of time? The spiral of life is ascending only to a certain point, then it goes down and if the climb was very tough, the downhill is much harder, and you can fall from above with an acceleration in geometric progression that can’t be stopped, and you ask yourself is not a bluff, and you should never forget that absolutely any waiting is provisional, even if it often takes a lifetime.
But some have managed to mark a point of inflection between climbing and descending, creating a resting area, or even crossing, as a deck over a cliff between two mountain ridges, or perhaps between hope and desire.
But now I do not want to talk about myself and my soul, but just go to work, do what I want with what I have, and what I have learned better, to highlight my creative part, to try to limit myself to the universal created by me for me, to enjoy as I wish, maybe some time somebody will find me as an exponent of past life or maybe not as an example to follow or maybe an example of followed by the next life.
Hard to say, but harder to achieve.