The shadows of the past…

A quote from Friedrich Nietzsche:

“The existence of forgotten has never been proven, we just know that some things do not come to mind when we want.”

It is said that in your life you are lucky to do it with your hand.I do not believe because it depends on too many internal, external, zodiac, I know the karma you have at birth, in other words, luck chooses you and not the other way around.

I cannot say that I was not lucky anyway, because I would chase God, but not as much as others did and how others had it, but the fact that I often think positively I believe I can go quite easily over many critical situations in life.

By the way, it was not easy at all, especially since at that time (before 1989), the black, black, most of the time difficult, you had to do everything possible to exist and pass easily over it to the limit.It was the time of communism.

Many do not want to remember those times, but they haunt me even now with the passage of years.It can dust the dust over it, but not so much to forget.

Will, I go to a psychiatrist?Hmmm!It’s modern but I do not think it could help me with anything.Give me pills, make me a specialty treatment?Dear God!!!I’m not crazy, but there have been too many years for me, and to change something would mean giving back time, or before what cannot really be, as I was born at that time, and did not I cannot help but resign and continue to go on the unseen thread of life as if nothing had happened.But dreams are dreams and can be interpreted in the same way.Maybe in a future life be better.

Some, at that time, said that in communism it is good and that we will live happily, maybe they alone and not the others, I do not want to quote the politicians, or rather the politicians of that time, since my opinion is that they have been prone to ideas primitive, immense rude , fixed and with values very close to the models of a closed society subjected to a single leader, without philosophical, mathematical or other purposes, the idea being tobe only good to them, and others to do as they will.

The values ​​to which these people were referring were populism and, to a lesser extent, the church, perhaps even atheism, in other words total vulgarity and obscurantism, values ​​that do not progress only to a small extent, and only to those who believed in them.

They were very few, but they had the power, and if you had not risked being marginalized in the happiest cases, otherwise you would have chosen the “miseries” you would not have expected.And I know enough cases.

That’s why I hate politics.Sometimes I wonder, is not it the same now?Yes, but with the human face…

There were times when you had money in your pocket, but you did not have anything to buy with them, as in the grocery stores they stood in the form of pyramid canned fish of the same type in tomato sauce, chicken cutlets and fish cutlets (head, spine and tail) nothing else.That was just a period of time after which they disappeared and the stores were empty, bringing food from time to time.In the clothing stores there were only dusty old fashioned models not in fashion.Will you ask that supermarkets did not exist?Well not seen in movies.That was then, but now a lot has changed.

Many times, you were in the queue to buy bread on the card, milk, butter and meat, the beer when it appeared to be a luxury product, and much more.

There are only a few aspects of my time before 1989, you have no way of knowing all of these things that I have lived, but now I remember the ghosts as ghostly, like passing passers-by.

Life was an adventure, an Amazon jungle where you had to struggle to take care of yourself, to be careful, what you say, what you are talking about, but especially who you are talking to and who you are crying for not having any unpleasant surprises later.And there were other unpleasant things that I really do not want to talk about, but especially I do not want to remember in any way.

Now it’s different, but you better get hit by the fact that you have what you buy, but you do not have what, because of the small pay, the politicians have changed their orientation, talk a lot, say very beautiful things, in fact the essence is the same, empty words.

Our system of thinking is extraordinarily creative, mainly based on our ability to see the world as a prime factor with good and evil, to create hypotheses on its own being a first step of a mathematically reported thought at certain milestones being the best argument for the emergence of new ideas and the development of living and living conditions, with the present time.I’m sure I’m not mistaken when making these statements.

I do not want to go into more philosophical debates as far as I could polemicist on this subject a whole novel and could create a state of confusion using sophisticated terms, but I actually said what hurts, unwilling to be considered by some and others like the world of those who “do not speak”, as we have been before, but which we have set up without any embarrassment, in a way, let’s say intellectually, academically, politely. As I said before, are not “yes man” and I do not think I will ever be.

I made this longer introduction not to bore the reader or weary, but as a preamble to the title I put “The Shadows of the Past …”, thinking of a terrible dream that I had the past days and namely that on the morning of December 21, 1989, by a total repulsion of the past regime, I fired at the party’s newspapers, in front of the post in the area where they live, naturally, if you think about all the negative accumulations from that time.

We were the only nation in the world that executed its president on a Christmas holiday on December 25, 1989, a thing that is not done, compared to other states in the socialist “gulag”, where the revolutions were so of velvet, without bloodshed, but with profound changes in history, the passage from an old stage to a new stage, or from one social order to another, in fact the transition from communism (socialism) to capitalism.

Now I think you understand why I briefly told the few “odious” facts, miserable in all respects that happened before 1989 through the popular uprising, why I do not believe politics and politicians, why do I hate to talk about politics, when many people love it.

I honestly do not care, and sincerely let me stop telling you about what was once, just the joyful moments and the adventures we’ve been through, though I can honestly say that history fascinates me, and I’m disturbed in a positive sense on everything that they read, be they historical chronicles, historical histories, or police novels with historical histories.

I really thought I would write a historic novel with a lot of action, as I like to have a project on this subject, but it will take some time for more detailed documentation and investigation of the things happening in the chronicles. This is why I need some time at the academic library of the academy.

I do not know if you liked what I wrote, but the message that I was elegantly trying to translate is not to question my critical and acidic view of politics or politicians or an ideology but just to they send out some facts that few of you have gone through and about which I do not think you could have imagined that they could have ever existed, only in some dreams, passing oversights, in other words you did not see some “Shadows of the past … “.

I will try to conclude this narration by a famous quote by a famous Romanian philosopher … Emil Cioran from “The Change to the Face of Romania” book:

“Romania’s historical spiral will rise to the point where we are dealing with the world. So far we have been reptiles, from here we stand up to the world to know that not only Romania is in the world but also the world in Romania. Unless we live apocalyptically for the destiny of this country, we will not put endless fever and passion in our beginnings, we are lost, and we only have to regain the shadows of our past. “

February 18/2018